Ambienix's Blog

reasons why Wale will rule the world

first off, he’s gorgeous…but imma keep this strictly based on talent
Mr. Wale is quickly rising to top notch popularity
He’s witty
He’s funny
He’s real
and best of all, his lyrics really grabs you…forcing you to really LISTEN to what he’s saying.
&& most rappers ain’t sayin shit but rhyming…not feeding their fans with anything but empty songs
This guy however, this guy…he doesn’t do that
he gives us songs like “Diary”, “90210″, “Family Affair”, “The Kramer”, and both “Manipulations” and odes such as “Ambitious Girl”  (and of course so much more) that make you think.
and it’s a treat from start to finish.
I personally love Wale because the dude got game. He’s great.
i can’t wait to see the heights he’ll reach in his career! and i’m hopin he remains the humble&& anti-commercial dude he’s been thus far

hair nappy but i’m happy

y’all make it hard out here for a kinky girl! i swear! smh
why oh why do so many people make it a point to comment on natural hair?
it’s honestly like a serious slap in the face when people try to poke fun at women with natural manes!
just let me and my fro be! please!
i feel like a lot of people get reckless bold and decide it’s cool to add on to the backlash natural women already face by adding their two cent about the way we decide to wear our hair.
hasn’t the progression of Blacks in society taught our brothers and sisters anything?
here i am thinking that i’m living in a world where more men and women are comfortable being Black and proud to flaunt our diversity.
silly of me to believe that we have reached a point in history where we can truly begin to let the world appreciate us for our many flavors and beauty!
ha, but i guess i was oh so wrong.
if my own brothers and sisters have to talk shit about my curly,kinky, bushy, puffy, whatever textured hair, how can i ever expect anybody else in this world to appreciate me and my beauty?
i went to a meeting in today and the president of the organization pointed out that African Americans are the only ones who have such diverse textures of hair!
but instead of celebrating it, too many of us are trying to hide it!
we hide it behind all of what society has announced as “beautiful”.
but don’t get me wrong, my weaved and relaxed (or variety of the two) women are beautiful too!
these are all choices that we all have rights to make as free African AMERICAN citizens.
all i’m saying is, there is no need to shun those who choose to go back to their natural states!
our hair is just as beautiful, luxurious, sexy, gorgeous, free, and desirable as any other hair type.
it just really upsets me that so many people are so hurtful towards their own people.
i don’t mind jokes, i joke with the best of them…some may even call me an asshole or sarcastic…
but there’s a line between “joke” and “ignorant”.
and too many of our own people are crossing it.
i don’t want a pat on the back, a rally, or any sort of prize for voicing my opinion…i’m just looking for understanding
understand that Black women face the lowest self esteem issues because we are constantly criticized about everything from our body types to our hair texture.
it’s time that we embrace ourselves as a people…we’re all beautiful….straight hair, long hair, short hair, “nappy” hair, curly hair, kinky hair…it’s all beautiful because it was all given to us by God!
good hair isn’t what society has drilled in our heads.
good hair is the hair we were born with! good hair is any hair that we have been blessed with.
what we want to do with it is our decision and I for one don’t have the time to hear any additional ignorant comments.
spare me with your opinions about my hair…cuz last time i checked it’s MINE not YOURS
so please…respect the fro man. that’s all i ask of you. just respect the friggin fro.
love, peace and hair grease

natural hair don’t care

people still ask me “Yo Nix, why’d you go natural?”
not that it’s anybody’s business…BUT i have been trying to make the transfer since my my senior year in high school.
HOWEVER, my mother quickly shut that down several times
it wasn’t until the second semester of my freshmen year that she agreed to let me do what i please with my hair.
and the transition began!!!
i stopped getting my hair chemically relaxed sometime in the winter of  2010
i decided to chop the rest of my relaxed ends (referred to as a Big Chop or BC) in July of 2010.
so here i am, rockin a quickly growing TWA (tweeny weeny afro)

for me, natural hair is awesome.
i can wake up, add water and go about my business.
i can walk in the rain and not fret about getting my hair wet
i can thoroughly enjoy showers cuz i’m not scared of my hair messing up.
but above all, i went natural to truly see what God blessed me with.
i’m soooo tired of people sayin “girl you got good hair” or “girrrrl, why you cut all that long pretty hair off?”
again, not that it’s anybody’s business…BUT good hair is any hair we were blessed with!
i was tired of being a slave to my own hair.
the maintenance, the chemical burns, not being to scratch, the constant $60+ a month, avoiding water and humidity
honestly, i just ain’t got the time for all that.
and honestly, i take much better care of my hair now that it’s natural.
when i was relaxed i never greased, oiled, deep conditioned or protected…
all i did was add heat! heat heat heat!
so yea, my hair was long…but it was definitely not healthy.
but now!!! boy oh boy, my hair is soft, manageable, healthy, conditioned, and curly as all get out!
and it’s growing like weeds now-a-days.
natural hair don’t care.
simple as that

so either you love me or…you don’t.
either way…i’m still Nix

just becuz

i guess too many girls be throwin it at these dudes these days cuz their hormones be JUMPIN OUT THE WINDOW
and unfortunately…
i don’t wish to accompany them out that window
so, don’t take it personal guys…
and y’all know who you are
the ones who hit me up for a late night “talk”
yea…and the ones with girlfriends…so i guess that makes me the substitute right?
not exactly good enough to be committed to, but good enough to try and screw?
hahaha, yea…
or maybe the ones who really, honestly, and truthfully believe they gonna get anything from me
i really do hate disappointing…but it’s best that i be the one to tell ya first…
you’re not getting anything…ANYTHING..ANYTHING from Nix
if you wanna pray, watch tv, study, listen to music, or just talk & chill…alright…get at me
but i most certainly am not the type for you to turn to if you’re trying to get your rocks off
sorry. *sad face*
((lol)) don’t be discourage though
i’m sure y’all must know PLENTY of girls who are more than willing to let u toot it and boot it
and if not…good luck finding those free willing girls! lol

i’m just a gemini

i’m just a gemini
&& he’s just a boy
but he’s more than just a boy…
i can’t put my finger quite on what it is that makes me want him
but i’d rather keep it that way tho
i love how he’s perfectly imperfect
i adore it
but what is it that has me trippin whenever i see him?
or has me super excited when we talk?
and gets me giddy like a school girl when we’re near each other?
man, it’s been a while since i crushed like this
don’t get me wrong,
i’ve been physically attracted to a few…
but it hasn’t been like this
he’s one of the few i can let my guard down with…be completely Nix
dang tho…he kinda doesn’t know how i’m feelin about him…
or he knows and he just ain’t lettin on…
&& i can never bring myself to tell him what i’ve been feelin for a while now
since we are friends…i guess it’s best not to mess that up right?
but then again…maybe there’s something there?
naw, i’m probably trippin right?
i mean, he’s the kinda guy girls should want in their lives…but are too dumb to see it
i wish he saw that i clearly see it…that i obviously appreciate it…
…appreciate him…
his love for his family, music, his goals, his love and passions, his ambitions, his thoughts, his humor…his scattered brainness lol
just hit the surface of why he’s so damn cool
he’s honestly a great guy
and well deserving of a great girl to compliment him
he’s a cool dude i must admit
i kinda dig a little bit
but i won’t let him know it…it’s a pride thing
or maybe a rejection thing? or both for that matter…
hmm, well either way it goes, the friend zone is where i’ll stay
&& if that’s as close as i’ll ever get, then i’m fine with it
cuz i’m just a gemini…talkin about a boy

&& the Journey continues…

Hey, guess who’s bizack…

Y’all, it’s been a hot minute and a cool second since I have posted anything.
But believe me!!!…it’s only because I had school work, papers, and exams.
Well, now that’s time for a much needed break from school…I’mmmmmmm baaaaaaaaack!

So, where to start…where to start…

Let’s see…from the start.
It’s been a long 6 months.
I have learned so much about hair over the this time of transition!
&& I must say, while I have been nearly 6 months post-relaxer, I still wasn’t taking care of my hair!

Until now…
My new hair regimen (still in the stage of tweaking it):
I wash my hair every 2 weeks
Each shampooing includes a deep conditioner
Every other shampooing includes a hot oil treatment (once a month)
&& between my shampoos I co-wash (co-washing is cleansing your hair with conditioner in order to cleanse and add mineral to your hair)
Also, i use coconut oil every evening to oil my extremely dry and itchy scalp…I use African’s Best Herbal Oil just about every morning to add nutrients and moisture to my overall dry hair.

Just within the time that I have been using these products…I must say that I do see a difference!
My hair has softened, it’s bouncier, my scalp isn’t so itchy, and my hair isn’t so damn dry!
It feels sooooo good.

However, I still have so much to learn!
My new growth is coming in like no other and it’s still hard to find ways to style and maintain…
I’ve done Senegalese Twists…but they only lasted two weeks…I’ve done Bantu knots, and now I’m just slicking my hair back.
I hope to discover some more stuff to try out over the weeks….and i plan to keep y’all “abreast” of these things

Shout out to all my transitioning and natural ladies! it’s a beautiful thing! however, like i said before, i aint knockin anybody who chooses to rock the chemical route! aye, different strokes for different folks.

Welp, next time i’ll be doing a product review for y’all…and maybe some uploads of my hair with the 6 months of new growth!
Until then y’all…God bless!

so there was this guy…

isn’t that how all bad stories start?
like seriously…if you really think about it…
when does it ever end up that “this guy”  becomes more than a “boo”
ugh…
well…maybe i’ll be that one exception?
but with my luck…

So…what to do what to do.
it starts with a guy…and then another guy….
one is my boo for real! and the other is my homie no doubt…
BUT the thing about that…kinda feelin them both…
nothing weird right? not too sticky right? NOT TO YOU!
if you really know me, you know that my ass stay stressin. lmao

my homie is my straight dude! like, he’s the realest && i admire that about him
until i really started diggin him…more than a friend.
but he doesn’t know…or at least i haven’t told him.
&& while forces are urging me to…i don’t think that i should.
cuz he’s my friend….

&& that’s not it…there’s this guy
he’s the sweetest of the sweet. cute, lovable, goofy, and really puts in effort to make me laff.
&& i can dig it.
thing is…he’s not quite ready for the relationship thing…and i kinda am.
smDh ( as in shake my DAMN head)

even tho me and the boo aren’t a “couple”, i feel a commitment to him…like a loyalty.
&& as far as my friend goes…he’s a friend…
&& if everything seems like it’s just that simple…why doesn’t it feel that way?

ugh. oh well…guess we shall see what happens!

upd8!

ugh!!!!
to anybody who may run past my blog…u know just to see wassup…u might notice that i’ve been out for QUITE SOMETIME…
well im baaaaaack!
Ambie Nix in the place to be mutha suckas!
{{LOL}}

anywho,
for those who may know me or read somewhere…I am in the process of going completely natural.
for those who may not be sure of the meaning, this is the process where i discontinue my use of chemical relaxers (which are known to be harmful to African American hair/health). in due time i might even fight the urge to color this tender head of mine…

well…im a good 4 months post my last relaxer and my kitchen is the WORST!
but it’s okay! i take it as a sign of strength and my own determination.
anyone who truly knows me, knows how impatient i can get…
well, im just blessed to have made it this far without throwin in the towel!

it’s truly a relaxing and liberating feeling to not have to pay $60 plus to burn my scalp off!
i can scratch as much as i please! && save my ass some damn money!
&& not only that…i can stop worrying about my hair having to constantly be BONE STRAIGHT!

im excited to see what kinda hair God has blessed me with!
i wanna see all the wonderful styles i can do!
im ready to stop being soooo attached to my hair!
liberate thyself dear woman! LIBERATE THYSELF! lmao! jus kiddin…unless u gonna do it

understand tho…
i aint knockin anybody who chooses to stay usin the relaxer (otherwise known as “Creamy Crack”)
this is all about self-expression and decision
i decided to go natural cuz it was just my time.
it’s time to start something new in my life…something representing the transitioning me…

so i’ll be updating what’s up throughout my “Natural Journey”
toodle doo!

&& God Bless

case of the dirty people

“dang shawty, you gonna need a shower after all the dirt you been slingin today”
Word to the rise…salty people will raise your blood pressure….so keep your distance.

it has recently come to my attention that anybody is capable of hurting somebody…ANYBODY
be wary of the people you keep around you…real shit
people will build you up just to see you tumble to your defeat
little do they know however….you’re not defeated…yea you might be down…but out? that’s not an option.
there are people who are sly with the dirt they do too…
i mean the people that will sweet talk you, pretend to love you, act like they’re there for you…
and they’ll be the very ones to hurt you the most

in no way am i sayin to put up this impossible guard…never that
but be careful
from personal experience, i can honestly say that not everyone with a smiling face has your best interest at heart
trust

all hope is not lost, not even close
something to keep in mind…
what goes around, comes around
i like to introduce this bitch by the name of karma…

that’s why these days i really try to think positively…
stay smiling…remember your many blessings
never let em see you sweat!

God Bless

bantu knots

man oh man, i tried my hands at bantu knots the other day…
the end result was cute for sure…
but…then i got into the shower.
and out went the beautiful curly masterpiece.
so…this isn’t really a post…just a warning…
bantu knots are meant to be let out AFTER getting out the shower.
duh right?…well this was just one of many slow moments for me.

SMH